As of November 2022, I have lost 55 pounds from all my efforts – including calorie counting, keto, and carnivore. I have definitely seen the most improvement and fastest losses on carnivore.
I started with calorie counting and exercise, but my losses were slow. I became frustrated and moved to the keto diet, which improved my progress. But I still felt something was off. It wasn’t until I went full carnivore that my health really started to improve.
It all started with getting off sugar and controlling my cravings for carbs/sugar.
Breaking my Sugar Addiction
When I first started, I was simply counting calories and exercising. This was very difficult because I was incredibly addicted to sugar and junk food. My cravings were out of control, and I would often fail and binge before trying to out-exercise my terrible diet.
Because I have insulin-resistant PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome), sugar is very dangerous for me. I knew I had to make a change in my diet to succeed. Even eating 1200 calories a day, I would still not lose weight – or lose very slowly – if I was eating inflammatory and insulin-spiking foods like sugar and grains.
So, I started the keto diet a month or so in. It went really well at first. I definitely dropped weight more quickly, my periods came back – although not regularly. But I was happy to see some progress. However, my cravings for sugar and junk were too much for me to bear and I eventually quit, telling myself I could eat healthy in “moderation.”
When I got pregnant in April 2022, I had already lost about 35 pounds from the earlier calorie counting and keto diet. But once morning sickness hit, all bets were off. I was eating terribly.
I was eating McDonald’s several times a week, lots of fruit, lots of grains and sugary crap. I had an aversion to meat – which I think was actually caused by the sugar I was eating. But I used it as an excuse to go wild and eat whatever I wanted.
Sadly, I lost my baby in July 2022 at 20 weeks. It wasn’t caused by my shitty diet (that I’m aware of), but an incompetent cervix that caused premature labor. After I was over the initial depression, I vowed that I would finally lose this weight no matter what.
I am dedicated to regaining my health so I can minimize risk in my future pregnancy and not die young of preventable disease. I know I have to get my insulin resistance under control, reverse my fatty liver, lose the weight, and become the healthiest version of myself I can be.
But the only way I can ever accomplish my goals is to break my sugar/junk food addiction once and for all. So, I did.
The Carnivore Diet
I started the carnivore diet in September 2022. It was HARD at first – one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But I did not give up! That’s what made the difference.
For the first week, I would last a day or two at most. Then I would break down, give in to my cravings, and eat fast food. But I would never let it last for more than a single meal. The next time I ate, I would make sure it was a carnivore meal.
That probably meant I took longer to fully adapt, but somehow it worked for me. After a few weeks, the binges stopped and I found myself not even wanting junk food anymore. All I wanted to eat was meat, butter, and eggs.
After a few more weeks of that, I realized that I had done it. I had completely broken my addiction to shitty food.
Now, junk doesn’t even tempt me – at all. I spent Thanksgiving seated at a table filled with desserts and didn’t even consider eating them. Sweet things are no longer appealing, and I just want my steak with butter when I feel hungry.
It’s amazing how your appetite really does change once you’ve stopped eating sugar and processed foods for a while.
I know I will never go back. I don’t want to go through the adaptation phase again – because it’s HARD. But most of all, I never want to feel out of control around food again.
Finding my True Self
I finally feel like myself again – even though I still have more weight to lose. My life no longer revolves around food. I barely think of it until I’m truly hungry, around once a day. Then I just cook a steak or a roast or some chicken wings. It’s so easy and has freed up so much of my time.
I used to constantly think about food, like an addict waiting for my next fix. I’d be planning what I would eat next (and when) before I even finished my current meal.
But that’s all gone, and so is all the shame, depression, and anxiety that goes with it. I don’t feel out of control anymore.
Now I can finally find my true self and learn to be happy for the first time in years. Being free of this addiction has changed me. Now that I’ve conquered this, I can actually start to make progress in other areas of my life.
I know I’ll lose the rest of the weight. I know that my health will continue to improve and I’ll have the baby I want so much. I no longer have to fight for my life every single day. I now have the freedom and strength I need to reach my goals.
Goals for the Future
As of today, I have 45 more pounds to lose to get down to a no-longer-overweight BMI. I may want to lose more once I get there, but I’ll wait and see what my body looks and feels like. I fully expect that skin removal surgery is in my future.
That’s the price I have to pay for the damage I did to my body, and I will gladly pay it.
I know I still have years of healing in my future, especially if I’m going to have a baby. That will set me back about a year. But again, I’m okay with that. I’m patient and I know I will get there in less time than I spent being fat.
I’ll continue on the carnivore diet for the rest of my life. I’m incorporating fasting into my routine, and hopefully autophagy can help with some of my loose skin. I’m also taking collagen and dry brushing, but I know that this most likely won’t be enough.